hi, r. my old friend.

i hope wherever you are, whatever you’re doing, i hope you’re happy. i hope you’re doing everything that you love. above all, i hope you’re happy. do know, i think about you from time to time. i grieved our friendship and i know i hurt you a lot.

just reading our past imessages just as simple as messaging me good morning on a rainy day because you remember how much i love the rain. and how i play jazz music or ben howard. i hope you know i miss you. i miss us.

hi r. it rained today. my hands grabbed my phone. idk maybe a muscle memory to message you also. or send you a gif of a girl right beside her window looking at the rain while drinking a hot cuppa. but reality hit me like a tidal wave. we weren’t friends anymore.